Sunday, October 17, 2010

I am officially...SINGLE...

I was with him for the past 4 years and 3 months.... like any other couples, we did hv fights n arguments, which is normal..

But the most recent argument led to a break-up...it had nothing to do with other people, cheating or anything that is related to betrayal...it was actually about being honest about our own objectives in life..he has his own objectives, so do i...

Of course at the beginning of the relationship, everything was just wonderful...the 2nd-3rd year were awesome...came the 4th year, everything has changed..i want to respect his privacy so i wouldnt state what changes he has gone through.. only that he has a new objective, which somehow contributes to the argument..

Basically, my objective is i wanna tie a knot with the one i love before i reach 30..i did tell him about this since the early stage of our relationship..and I was happy that he could accept that despite his young age..but that was then....longgggg longggg time ago when we were deeply in love with each other..

Now u tell me, what woman is not going to ask 'that' question after being together for a long time...4years plus, mind u! But then again, part of it was my mistake, choosing someone younger at the first place..am i stupid? i hv no regret....

I do agree that sometimes, my own selfishness about some stuff has made the change of heart of him..im sorry about that..i admit i've made him disappointed on certain matters..on the other hand, i was also upset with him due to certain matters also..so both hv been through some rough moment trying to accept one another all this while...

I want to hate him but i cannot..the fact that i still love him hurts me even more..yet, i know that its no use loving someone who doesnt love u anymore as much as u do...and i know someone better is waiting for me out there..

It was mutual..we need to go separate ways..but we're still friends..we can still hangout together if we want to...it wud be awkward going out with ur X but yeah, he's still one of the best persons i've ever known..n like i said, i hv no regret knowing n being with him for the past 4 years..thanks for all the memories...i wish u all the best in life.. :')

6 comments:

linda d. said...

life must go on!

TaQuiLa said...

well..God wants us to meet wrong men before we met the right one..that's wut i believe every now and then..

cheer up...masi banyak kumbang berterbangan..heeeee

~Adorable Alycia~ said...

Oh dear, i'm sorry to hear that....hope you will find someone else who could make u happy k...

Cynta said...

Sorry to hear about the breakup..sometimes we just have to deal with reality rather than living with what seems ideal. It's good that you would always be friends with him :-)

GeTzzz.... said...
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GeTzzz.... said...

Let's just say that, U guys were not meant to be. But at least u had experienced being on the road with someone else whom you really love. And its a plus for you.
God has destined us to a better path. U might never know. U might be with him again or else ull find sumone better:)but watever it is, As Linda D. says "Life must go on"